2020

2020 has been a difficult year for a lot of us, from dealing with the loss of family members to navigating life during a pandemic (which in itself comes with issues, both mental and physical). No one could have predicted how this year would have unfolded, yet here we are with no other option but to face reality. When will it end is the question that escapes everyones lips, the question that no one has the answer to.

I didn’t expect my blogging hiatus to end on such a doom & gloom note (sorry). I’ve pretty much abandoned this blog for so long, I no longer know how to write. Hopefully this is something I can work on in the near future but for now you’ll have to enjoy the rambling nonsensical workings of my brain.

What I really wanted to say is that we don’t know the direction/journey that life will take us on. If you’re anything like me, there will be resolutions that will remain unmet, but we can’t let that define us. This year has been too mentally taxing for us to then dwell on the things that we can’t change. All we can do is pick ourselves up and try again.

My prayer for everyone reading (and not reading ) this, is that 2021 will be kind to you, I pray that all your dreams, manifestations, prayers come into fruition.

God bless, always x

Letters from the heart: Life

Life is difficult.

It doesn’t come with an instruction manual, I mean if it did then it would be a breeze right?

Instead, we are thrown into the deep end, expected to navigate through our trials and tribulations without the blink of an eye.

Someone once told me that living is as easy as breathing.

But sometimes I find it difficult to breathe.

To some, the deep end isn’t that deep. But i’m drowning and the only one who can save me is me.


Hi Guys, I know that this is very different to the stuff I usually post. I’ve been feeling really down & demotivated as of late so I decided to just sit here and write whatever comes to mind.

I hope everyone is doing well & enjoying the new month.

Adina x

My first time in Toronto

A trip to Canada has been long overdue, I’m talking years!! September was the month that trip came into fruition. However, it was my first long haul flight alone. If you’re up to date with my blog you’ll already know that I suffer from social anxiety, so getting ready for this trip was definitely a struggle. There were so many sleepless nights and thoughts about me cancelling my ticket, not caring if I were to lose all the money I had saved up.

In hindsight, I was probably being a tad irrational and over dramatic but hey ho, what’s new. With my bags packed (last minute of course), my vlogging camera at the ready and the obligatory panic attack whilst going through security, I was starting to look forward to my new adventure.

A few months prior, I had made a list of everything I planned to do in Toronto, in order to get some quality footage for my vlog. Failing to prepare = Preparing to fail…right? Well not in this case. I had prepared so much that I felt quite annoyed with myself when nothing I had actually prepared for came into passing. On a positive note, that just means that the next time I go back, I have a long list of things to tick off.

Throughout my stay, I was based in Mississauga (Alexa play Break from Toronto by PartyNextDoor) My aunt was turning 50 and throwing a party to celebrate this momentous occasion, so the first few days of my trip were helping to run errands whilst also meeting new family members. This was quite daunting to begin with, but everyone was super nice and welcoming.

Toronto is just a whole new vibe. There are aspects similar to London, as there is with pretty much any city, yet it still felt very dissimilar at the same time. Prior to writing this post I was just going to throw my whole account of Canada in here but it may get pretty lengthy, so I will make a start on a separate post of what I specifically got up to and include some pictures too.

Now I’ve come to the end of this blog post, i’m not too sure what my intended purpose was, but at least it gives both you & I a feel of what is to come 🙂

Goodnight?

Goodnight or would good morning be more appropriate? It’s 12:30am… way past my bedtime of 11, but there are just a few things I wanted to share and get off my chest.

Recently I haven’t been posting as much as I used to, and certainly not as much as I would like to. The blame can be placed on a lot of things such as; Jet lag, having a full-time job, etc…

The truth is, my mind is literally being stretched in so many different directions. So much so, that I am struggling to even put pen to paper. I feel as though nothing I think of writing is ever good enough, or worthy enough to share. Honestly, my drafts on here are a mess, so many unfinished blog posts that I do not have the motivation or heart to continue.

A few weeks ago I travelled to Canada & had so many ideas for different blog posts & vlogs surrounding my trip. None of which actually materialised. I have a few segments of footage floating around in my hard drive but whenever I conjure up the courage to edit, I feel as though I come across as boring on camera, I pick out features on my face that I wish I could change.

I tweeted my frustration earlier & this is a response I received from a lovely fellow blogger.

 

 

Her response really put things into perspective, there’s no need for me to be stressed or have feelings of guilt for not posting in a while. This is supposed to be a fun hobby, so why am I feeling strained?

I guess I just wanted to share this just in case anyone out there is going through the same thing as me. Take that well deserved break & come back once you have realigned yourself with the universe & what you stand for x

“The Power” Review

I‘m going to take a wild guess and say that at least 1/2 of the people here have read ‘The Secret’, or have at least heard of it. My first thoughts around the Secret and everything that it is based upon were not very positive. Honestly, I thought people were crazy for reading into this nonsense.

However, everywhere I turned people were mentioning how the law of attraction and manifestation had worked for them. Intrigued, I believed this to be a sign from the universe that I should try and give it a go.

Me being me, I decided to start off with the 2nd book: “The Power” which I had found in a stationery shop called ‘the works’ for £3. The first page does note that you don’t have to have read the first book as it pretty much contains the same lessons. However, if you really do want to gain some background knowledge before you jump into the 2nd book, ‘The Secret’ is also a film which is now available to watch on Netflix.

In a nutshell,  ‘The Power’ is a handbook on how to achieve, create and change absolutely anything (with reason) using the power of the universe. The power being the law of attraction…imagining things you want as if you already have them.  Now you can see why I think this to be a crazy idea right?

I’m all for speaking things into existence, but imagining things have happened before they actually do, seems like a step too far. However, I decided to put all of my hesitations aside and try it out…I’m not sure if this a coincidence but my local shop has been out of stock of grapefruit for months, so I imagined myself going into the store picking up some grapefruit. Later on that day, I found my way to the fruit aisle and to my surprise there was one last grapefruit waiting for me. Now again, this could be a coincidence, however, there have since been other moments just like these, that have me thinking…maybe ‘The power/secret’ is real.

Even if you are sceptical, this book is a good read and I would definitely recommend it. Contained within the pages are some valuable life lessons that I personally think everyone can benefit from.

I will go ahead a post a few of my favourites below:

“So many people don’t live for today. They are completely consumed with the future, and yet it is how we live today that creates our future” – page 56

“Whatever desire you can imagine, already exists! It doesn’t matter what it is, if you can imagine it, it already exists in creation” – page 71

  1. Be grateful for everything you have received in your life (past)
  2. Be grateful for everything you are receiving in your life (present)
  3. Be grateful for what you want in your life as though you have already received it (future) – page 130